but do you even try?

i will not apologize for things i never did wrong. you can give me that look and mumble under your breath. but it was not me. i'll tell you time and time again. it was not me. i did not do it. i can not do it. i care too deeply. but do you care? maybe you're the one who did it. maybe it was you. there is no proof. there is barely an accusation. but i can see it in your eyes. hear it in your breath. every time you blink my heart stops for a second. if those eyes never were to open again my heart would cease to beat. i told you that before. when i hold your face close to mine you smile. when i touch your shoulder to turn you round you frown. surprises make all the difference. you told me that before. i heard you. but can you hear me? i feel as though you do not take the actions you were meant to. backing away from responsibility and bathing in your mistakes. there is no point in changing out of a sin if the only things in your closet are sins. i tried so hard to get you to put on a new mask. to find a new place to land your rocket ships. but you never listened. just because you are used to something does not mean it is right. and just because i'm the only person telling you these things does not mean i'm right. doubt me. lie to me. twist my words and rip open my intentions for everyone to see. i want you to let go. i want to see you let go because i know i can not.
you still think it was me.