i thought of you today.

i thought of both of you, a lot.
but only one of you knows this exists so i shall address this to you.

is it inappropriate to miss you? am i wrong for wanting to be around you?
you took that weight that dug me into the ground and threw it far into the ocean. i was freed, limbs moving around like the first time i had ever walked. you steadied me even when nobody else could. gave me a hand to hold and a shoulder to grab onto. but the wind was too strong. my frail body was cast into the raging waves. but the sea is my home, i can never deny it. i am tethered into it's intricate being even when she thrashes against my wills.
i was freed but i had never been in captivity. this weight has not returned to my step but i seem to be moving slower.

your mind is fickle, your intentions are good, your punishment is vast.
even when it's all about you it has something to do with us. thrust into my life you choose to never leave. your warmth is cold but your presence is scalding. i'm never lonely when you are not around but when we intercept each other i wish it could be frozen forever in a moment.

"i miss you" (162)
"i forgot" (159)
the diction and the metaphors confuse me. i'm constantly lost in the interactions of the characters. there is no sensible connections between the actions and the reactions. i can simply conclude that the narrator is unhinged. her insanity causes pain for those around her. yet none of them last longer than a chapter or two before she is lost in another important person at an important place during an important time. but a book so filled with importance i must ask myself as the reader; is any of it important anymore?

themes: anger, love, abandonment, resent, pain, acceptance, beauty, failure

generative questions:
1) do you still think of me? read my blog? miss me?
2) have you lost faith in me? have i lost faith in you?

if there are any clarification questions or you have a drawing or two to add please see me after class.