everyone tells you that beeing a teenager

is hard ebcause you ahve a lot of mixed emotions and you cant articulate what you want
everyone tells you that being a young adult is hard because you dont know what you want to do with youer life and you cant seem to get anythign together. everyone tells you that being an adult is heard because you have to take care of yourself, money matters, you need job security and you arent happy ebcuase of all the work you have to do. these lives that people are trying to tell me i will live have no point. i try to get around it but i fail. it's only 9. i dont want to be home. i dont ever want to be home. i want to slip under door ways and slide right around windows. i dont want to talk to anyone. i want to see the people i like. i dont want to have a cellphone. i want to have friends. i dont want this computer. i want a mountain to climb. fuck. im lost again. i didnt tell you how much i hated summer because it sounds so broken and pathetic. i cant handle this. i want it. but i cant handle it. i love summer but it doesnt love me back.